203.8 this morning...so lost almost a full pound. If I can keep this up, I'll be below 200 by the weekend! :)
I ate a McDonald's grilled chicken breast plain yesterday as I didn't have time to cook chicken...and then a few pieces of an oil free, sauce free steak at Ruby Tuesdays. I had 2 apples, which isn't the best but I really wanted the sweet. And it still paid off.
Today I will endeavor to eat just the chicken and the one apple, and maybe some steak and a pickle. Other than still being sick, I feel pretty good. Looking forward to finishing up with Phase 2 (hopefully at my 1st goal of 190) and then doing 3 weeks of P3 and 3 weeks of P4. There's a Red Velvet Cheesecake at the Cheesecake Factory with my name on it for P4. :)
Tuesday, June 30, 2009
Monday, June 29, 2009
VLCD 25
Wow...finally...204.7 lbs...I've lost 20 pounds in a bit over three weeks! Despite the one cheat, my TOM, and being horribly sick (I'm still sick), I finally hit that milestone. Now, I have 14 more lbs to lose in my remaining 19 days on the diet...I think I can do it. Then I can stabilize at 190 for 3 weeks eating an Atkins like induction diet of 1600 calories (no starch, no sugar)...then gradually eat normally for another 3 weeks, and then start Phase 2 again. And I hope in that round to lose at least 30 lbs.
My goal is to reach 150 lbs by 11/1/09. :)
The diet gets easier every day. I still think about food and lust over it, but I'm rarely hungry, and the days slip away as I dream of getting to the size I've wanted to be for so many years. I couldn't do it without the support of my wonderful, wonderful husband.
My goal is to reach 150 lbs by 11/1/09. :)
The diet gets easier every day. I still think about food and lust over it, but I'm rarely hungry, and the days slip away as I dream of getting to the size I've wanted to be for so many years. I couldn't do it without the support of my wonderful, wonderful husband.
VLCD 23 and 24
Remained in a stall. Had a busy, exhausting, and often disappointing weekend but stayed the course.
Friday, June 26, 2009
VLCD 22
Still 208. Being sick sucks for many reasons, but the fact is that I'm not hungry and doing the diet perfectly and it really hurts to not have it working at all. If I'd stalled at 206 that would have been bad enough, but to gain really adds insult to injury.
I've been taking meds and drinking rivers of water. So now I feel bloated AND sick. Blech.
Ok, done moaning. Praying that I will start losing again soon, and more importantly, that I'll feel better quickly-I have a big weekend ahead.
I've been taking meds and drinking rivers of water. So now I feel bloated AND sick. Blech.
Ok, done moaning. Praying that I will start losing again soon, and more importantly, that I'll feel better quickly-I have a big weekend ahead.
Thursday, June 25, 2009
VLCD 21
Still super sick-up another pound, which is incredibly depressing. I had a goal for this weekend of 202 lbs, and I'm 209. All this with faultless dieting despite a ton of stress AND being sick. Oh well. A terrific nurse on the HCG board told me my body was going through a cleanse and to fight my illness, take a ton of vitamin C to the point of diarrhea, and also something called NAC caps, which is a proven remedy for boosting the immune system and getting cold and flu out of the body. Hubby went to buy me some-here's hoping!
Wednesday, June 24, 2009
VLCD 20
Not a great day today. Was sick and continued to be sick (sinus issues/cold) this morning...and despite following the diet perfectly yesterday, I was up 2 lbs. I heard that a cold and allergies cause water retention. Today I got sugar free cough syrup, cough drops, and Zicam and hope that it won't make me retain more. Other than feeling stuffed up and tired, I'm ok. Still hoping to weigh between 200 and 202 for Saturday...I figure if I can finish my period AND lick this cold, it might happen. Followng the diet, and drinking loads and loads and lakes of water. As always, we'll see. :)
Tuesday, June 23, 2009
VLCD 19
206.2...so I'm down 18.5 lbs in the same number of days, which rocks. And I have my period-hoping to see a few more pounds go down this week once that's run its course! Yay.
Monday, June 22, 2009
VLCD 18
Period started in full today; and was up all night sick as a dog with the runs (sorry for the TMI) and now a sinus injection of sorts. But...the upside is that I was 207.2 lbs! So yay for being sick. ;) Actually, I'm still feeling pretty awful. Am at work but will leave early and try to rest up. I decided to do my shot today because while some suggest you skip it for the first day or so of your TOM, I was afraid of my cravings. If I don't feel good, and then have access to food since I am not at work, then I am self destructive. So I took my shot and am hoping for the best. In the meantime, I'm halfway to my first goal!!!
Sunday, June 21, 2009
VLCD 17
and back up to 209/210 (hovering) this morning. My TOM officially starts tomorrow, so I'm hoping that's the reason for a stall and that in a few days I will drop a ton of weight. :)
I survived a movie theatre today with a bottle of water. My hubby forsook his popcorn or candy and got a hot dog instead. Yes, I wanted to sucker punch him for a bite, but I held it together. :)
I survived a movie theatre today with a bottle of water. My hubby forsook his popcorn or candy and got a hot dog instead. Yes, I wanted to sucker punch him for a bite, but I held it together. :)
Saturday, June 20, 2009
VLCD 16
208.8 lbs this morning!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! That is my Saturday gift. And 2 more inches gone from my belly! I am so excited to think I am 18.8 lbs away from my first goal, and I have 25 days left to lose it. I've lost 15.9 lbs in 2 weeks...this is incredible to me.
Busy things going on today, so I will just bask in my weight loss and run around like a chicken with my head cut off.
Enjoy the day! :)
Busy things going on today, so I will just bask in my weight loss and run around like a chicken with my head cut off.
Enjoy the day! :)
Friday, June 19, 2009
VLCD 15
and back up to 212.9 lbs. That said, I got my period and am also constipated. I know-TMI! Yesterday, I ate my apple, 100 grams of chicken, 100 grams of steak, and had a decaf iced tea sweetened with liquid stevia. That's it...none of my berries or veggies. I'm trying to be as stringent as I can...it wasn't too hard. My hunger has been a little better. I worry that when my period hits fully in the next day or so and I have to miss two days of injections per the protocol that I will be starving and miserable. It's an important week ahead for me and I'd hoped to be down to 205. C'est la vie.
I am home today, and will stay in my room doing work to avoid the fridge temptation downstairs. I will probably be hungry enough to want to cheat, but after Tuesday's disastrous cheat, I won't actually go through with it.
I've got my water and my LifeCaps and will just hope for the best. I hope that in the next few days the scale starts to move rapidly in the downward direction again!
I am home today, and will stay in my room doing work to avoid the fridge temptation downstairs. I will probably be hungry enough to want to cheat, but after Tuesday's disastrous cheat, I won't actually go through with it.
I've got my water and my LifeCaps and will just hope for the best. I hope that in the next few days the scale starts to move rapidly in the downward direction again!
Thursday, June 18, 2009
VLCD 14
Well, I got back to 211.7lbs, so I lost the 2 lbs I gained as a result of my horrid binge. I feel a lot better and more in control today. Was barely hungry yesterday...hope that continues. I'm ready to be done feeling the hunger that everyone said would stop within my first week.
I'm on VLCD 14 (2 weeks!) and day 17 of my injections. I have 25 more injections (added two for my period) and 31 more days of the VLCD. That means that I have 31 more days to lose the 21.7 lbs it will take me to reach my first goal of 190 lbs.
My period is coming...not sure what that will bring. Was advised to not do my shot on the first two days and then get back on them. No idea how I will feel, esp. the hunger aspect. Hoping for the best, though.
I'm on VLCD 14 (2 weeks!) and day 17 of my injections. I have 25 more injections (added two for my period) and 31 more days of the VLCD. That means that I have 31 more days to lose the 21.7 lbs it will take me to reach my first goal of 190 lbs.
My period is coming...not sure what that will bring. Was advised to not do my shot on the first two days and then get back on them. No idea how I will feel, esp. the hunger aspect. Hoping for the best, though.
VLCD 13
Post Tuesday Binge: At 2pm, 1 hour after eating pizza & sandwich, my stomach became distended and hard, and I threw up a few times. I didn't eat for the rest of the day and felt sick even into the next morning...when I awoke with a 2lb gain.
Ate an apple at 11am, drank water, and then had my 3.5 oz of steak at 6pm. Nothing else. Hoped to get back down to the weight I was before I fell off the wagon.
Don't cheat. It's SO not worth it. I cheated big, and am probably lucky that I only gained 2lbs from it. I felt sick emotionally and physically, and am still kicking myself.
Ate an apple at 11am, drank water, and then had my 3.5 oz of steak at 6pm. Nothing else. Hoped to get back down to the weight I was before I fell off the wagon.
Don't cheat. It's SO not worth it. I cheated big, and am probably lucky that I only gained 2lbs from it. I felt sick emotionally and physically, and am still kicking myself.
Tuesday, June 16, 2009
VLCD 12
It's not gotten off to a good start. This morning, I weighed myself super early. 211.1, so less than half a pound lost. I figured it was too early and waited until 8am. 211.5 again...no weight loss. An hour later, I was up to 212.8. And that was after a BM and three times peeing!
No sure what's going on and I'm a little panicked. Yesterday, I skipped my evening meal...not intentionally...but instead of 500+ calories, I ate 325.
This morning, my reward for being hungry all last night was weight gain and being absolutely starving today.
TOM isn't for 6 more days. I did eat 2 strawberries yesterday in my berry mix. Since they are the recommended fruit from Dr. Simeons, and I'm allergic, I tried to eat them in hopes of making my allergy better. I have two hives this morning. The girls on the board say that the weight gain is probably just water retention from the allergic reaction (hives). That still seems extreme to me.
Oh well. Must resist the urge to have pizza. I'm starving, tired, depressed, and bored...not a good combo when you're home alone. But I'm 1/3 of the way through...I don't want to screw up now.
1pm. And I'm going to screw up. After a slew of depressing news where I feel helpless and hopeless, I ordered from Dominos. A sandwich and a pizza. I can't believe I'm doing this. But between the lack of weight loss and then bad news from my parents, sisters, husband AND work...I am feeling like crap. And so hungry. I know that most people would gain a pound; I'll probably gain all my weight back. I feel like such a hypocrite-I thought the people constantly cheating on the board were kind of pathetic. But I'm just as bad.
No sure what's going on and I'm a little panicked. Yesterday, I skipped my evening meal...not intentionally...but instead of 500+ calories, I ate 325.
This morning, my reward for being hungry all last night was weight gain and being absolutely starving today.
TOM isn't for 6 more days. I did eat 2 strawberries yesterday in my berry mix. Since they are the recommended fruit from Dr. Simeons, and I'm allergic, I tried to eat them in hopes of making my allergy better. I have two hives this morning. The girls on the board say that the weight gain is probably just water retention from the allergic reaction (hives). That still seems extreme to me.
Oh well. Must resist the urge to have pizza. I'm starving, tired, depressed, and bored...not a good combo when you're home alone. But I'm 1/3 of the way through...I don't want to screw up now.
1pm. And I'm going to screw up. After a slew of depressing news where I feel helpless and hopeless, I ordered from Dominos. A sandwich and a pizza. I can't believe I'm doing this. But between the lack of weight loss and then bad news from my parents, sisters, husband AND work...I am feeling like crap. And so hungry. I know that most people would gain a pound; I'll probably gain all my weight back. I feel like such a hypocrite-I thought the people constantly cheating on the board were kind of pathetic. But I'm just as bad.
Monday, June 15, 2009
VLCD 11
How appropriate that I am 211.5 this morning?!? :) Yesterday I experimented a bit...I had my usual apple, chicken, and celery...and then I got lean steak from Chipotle. It was 4 oz, prob made with a little oil and lots of spice, but I figured that if I sacrificed my spinach and my berries, it might be ok. And it was...I dropped a pound! But...it was a little too spicy without rice and beans to break it up, and I missed my veggies. So-good to know Chipotle can work in a pinch, but mainly, I will take my yummy steak with my spinach and berries.
Enjoy!
Enjoy!
Sunday, June 14, 2009
VLCD 10
...and it did...212.5 this morning! So I'm down 12.2 lbs in 9 days, which is awesome! 22.5 lbs to reach my first goal, and if I can just lose at least .8 lbs a day, I will reach it.
Lazy day at home today...going to keep the 150 iu and the new supplements I was advised to take: l-glutamine, l-cytoseine, potassium, MSM, BioSil, and thymus gland. I hate pills, esp. horse pills, but I hear that they help with cravings, water loss/cramps, mood, thyroid regulation, and thinning hair (which people often have during/after the diet).
Lazy day at home today...going to keep the 150 iu and the new supplements I was advised to take: l-glutamine, l-cytoseine, potassium, MSM, BioSil, and thymus gland. I hate pills, esp. horse pills, but I hear that they help with cravings, water loss/cramps, mood, thyroid regulation, and thinning hair (which people often have during/after the diet).
VLCD 9
Depression set in when I was only down to 213.8 this morning. I'm doing everything right. I decided to lower my dose from 200IU sub-q to 150 iu sub-q. We'll see.
Tough day...friends came over and ate pizza and subs and cookies and soda. I wanted to gnaw my own arm off, but I stuck to my goals with my berries and steak. Hope it pays off tomorrow.
Tough day...friends came over and ate pizza and subs and cookies and soda. I wanted to gnaw my own arm off, but I stuck to my goals with my berries and steak. Hope it pays off tomorrow.
Friday, June 12, 2009
VLCD 8
214 even this morning. 7 days on the VLCD and I've lost 10.7 lbs and 10 inches! So, I guess I hoped to see more loss, but overall I'm happy...if I can keep up this pace, I'll meet my first goal of 190 without a problem in mid July.
Here's hoping!
I'm home from the office today, which makes it a little harder. I'm still hungry, but worse than that...I cannot stop thinking about food. It's so ridiculous. I actually make my husband tell me everything HE ate during the day, so I can live vicariously through it!
But as long as I keep losing weight, I think I can keep this up. Here's hoping! (take 2) :)
Here's hoping!
I'm home from the office today, which makes it a little harder. I'm still hungry, but worse than that...I cannot stop thinking about food. It's so ridiculous. I actually make my husband tell me everything HE ate during the day, so I can live vicariously through it!
But as long as I keep losing weight, I think I can keep this up. Here's hoping! (take 2) :)
VLCD 7
was at 214.9lbs...not the 2 lbs a day I was losing, but it's sure better than gaining! Had an extremely busy day and missed my veggies. Drank 136 oz of water and felt like I'd float away.
Wednesday, June 10, 2009
VLCD 6
Well, only lost a little more than half a pound today...it's weird...I did everything the same yesterday, but today I feel bloated. Oh well...the scale continues to go down...I'm now 215.4 lbs, bringing my 5 day loss to a whopping 9.3 lbs, which rocks!
Today is my hubby's birthday. We're going out with his folks to a steakhouse. I am going to ask them to cook me a little steak, no butter, no oil...and will avoid veggies and cake, obviously. Will have berries later.
Hot summer days overwhelm me...I feel like I'm retaining water and dehydrated when I'm so clearly not. Blech.
Happy Birthday, honey!
Today is my hubby's birthday. We're going out with his folks to a steakhouse. I am going to ask them to cook me a little steak, no butter, no oil...and will avoid veggies and cake, obviously. Will have berries later.
Hot summer days overwhelm me...I feel like I'm retaining water and dehydrated when I'm so clearly not. Blech.
Happy Birthday, honey!
Tuesday, June 9, 2009
VLCD 5
I cannot believe that I lost another 2.1 lbs! 8.7 lbs down since I began the diet 6 days ago (2 of those load in days)...it's incredible and I'm filled with hope for the first time in many years. :) Maybe my first goal of 190 lbs (aka 34 lbs down in 43 days) isn't so far fetched after all...:)
I mixed things up a bit today...started off with lots of water and a cup of hot Yerba Mate tea...then had my apple...waited till 130pm for lunch...chicken and spinach. One bottle of diet white peach iced tea...it's a nice break from the now 112 oz of water I'm drinking a day. I will snack on celery sticks at around 4pm, and then have a dinner of raspberries and steak at 530pm. I have a meeting till 1030pm tonight, so there will be no opps to snack before bed. :)
I know that the weight loss can't keep up at 2 lbs a day, but I hope that 1lb a day can be done...the faster it happens, the more incentive there is to stay. That's true in most cases, but especially for me.
I mixed things up a bit today...started off with lots of water and a cup of hot Yerba Mate tea...then had my apple...waited till 130pm for lunch...chicken and spinach. One bottle of diet white peach iced tea...it's a nice break from the now 112 oz of water I'm drinking a day. I will snack on celery sticks at around 4pm, and then have a dinner of raspberries and steak at 530pm. I have a meeting till 1030pm tonight, so there will be no opps to snack before bed. :)
I know that the weight loss can't keep up at 2 lbs a day, but I hope that 1lb a day can be done...the faster it happens, the more incentive there is to stay. That's true in most cases, but especially for me.
Monday, June 8, 2009
VLCD 4
And the scale hath rewarded me...2.1lbs down for a grand total of 6.6lbs lost since the VLCD began 4 days ago!!! I am less hungry, which may be due to LifeCaps or just the HCG itself...I'm thankful for whatever it is!
Going to a concert tonight...worried about having to pee a thousand times...I usually drink a diet soda and that will keep me from peeing for hours...but I can't do that now! Oh well...hope to get all my liquids in (I'm drinking 5-6 bottles of water a day, something like 96oz) before the concert and then just enjoy it.
12am update...not so bad...did have to use the icky public restrooms twice during the show but it was no biggie. :) And the concert was AMAZING!!! :)
Going to a concert tonight...worried about having to pee a thousand times...I usually drink a diet soda and that will keep me from peeing for hours...but I can't do that now! Oh well...hope to get all my liquids in (I'm drinking 5-6 bottles of water a day, something like 96oz) before the concert and then just enjoy it.
12am update...not so bad...did have to use the icky public restrooms twice during the show but it was no biggie. :) And the concert was AMAZING!!! :)
Sunday, June 7, 2009
VLCD 3
...220.2lbs. Less than half a pound lost on Day 2 of VLCD, so that's extremely discouraging. I am hungry but not starving today, and hope that keeps up. No headache yet. Took a LifeCap, and am going to eat my apple in a little bit. We'll see!
945pm update...day went pretty well. Ate all my usual stuff. Hunger is mild compared to yesterday, but I am still definitely thinking about food. No headache. So, all in all, was pretty good.
Fingers crossed for seeing 219.2lbs on the scale tomorrow!!! :)
945pm update...day went pretty well. Ate all my usual stuff. Hunger is mild compared to yesterday, but I am still definitely thinking about food. No headache. So, all in all, was pretty good.
Fingers crossed for seeing 219.2lbs on the scale tomorrow!!! :)
Saturday, June 6, 2009
VLCD 2
And the morning scale held a beautiful surprise for me...220.7lbs, meaning I lost 4lbs since yesterday!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! That is certainly good incentive. I woke up late today, at 10am, so I haven't yet had my shot...and I am not hungry. That's an even better sign. I'm ready to start the day! :)
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I had hunger issues today again, along with a nasty migraine. I finally gave in and took 2 Alleve...I felt better later in the day. I got through it all, and I'm guessing the LifeCaps I took to stave off hunger helped a little. Hopefully the morning will bring me rewards for the angst.
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I had hunger issues today again, along with a nasty migraine. I finally gave in and took 2 Alleve...I felt better later in the day. I got through it all, and I'm guessing the LifeCaps I took to stave off hunger helped a little. Hopefully the morning will bring me rewards for the angst.
Friday, June 5, 2009
HCG Protocol-The First 3 Days
Injection Day/Load In Day 1...6/3/09...
224.7 lbs
-proceeded to do the Load in...eating everything I wanted, esp. old treats I hadn't had forever. Cheesecake, bagels...unfortunately, a few hours after the shot, I wasn't hungry. Two days of load in and I was ready to throw up...I didn't eat even half of what I'd purchased for the load in days but I really didn't want to get sick.
Injection Day/Load In Day 2...6/4/09...
222.0 lbs
-more food, still no hunger. Feeling alert and awake.
Injection Day/VLCD Day 1...6/5/09
224.7 lbs (so, I gained nothing in my load in days despite stuffing my face-that's a first)
-9am shot...feeling hungry
-drink lots and lots of water (four 16 oz bottles) to stave off the hunger
11am-1 medium sized gala apple and a cup of hot decaf tea with Stevia sweetener
1230pm-3oz of boneless, skinless chicken breast seasoned with garlic powder & sea salt and 5 sticks of celery
2pm-2 more bottles of water
4pm-1 cup of hot Yerba Mate tea
5pm-3oz of steak seasoned with garlic powder & sea salt and 1/2 a package of plain spinach
530pm-diet iced tea
6pm-frozen raspberries with 1/2 packet of Stevia
730pm-15 minute walk with my husband and my dog
830pm-1 cup of hot Yerba Mate tea
10pm...off to bed. I won't lie...I have been hungry ALL DAY LONG. But I survived. I didn't cheat, I did everything according to plan, and I got in my little planned exercise. I feel pretty good, gnawing hunger pangs aside. I didn't wear any make up save a little mascara and lipstick, and I'm just using my organic lotion. I went out tonight and purchased more organic things like shampoo & conditioner, rock crystal deodorant, sugar free breath mints made with xylitol, and hair color. We'll see. :)
We'll see what the morning scale holds for me...:)
224.7 lbs
-proceeded to do the Load in...eating everything I wanted, esp. old treats I hadn't had forever. Cheesecake, bagels...unfortunately, a few hours after the shot, I wasn't hungry. Two days of load in and I was ready to throw up...I didn't eat even half of what I'd purchased for the load in days but I really didn't want to get sick.
Injection Day/Load In Day 2...6/4/09...
222.0 lbs
-more food, still no hunger. Feeling alert and awake.
Injection Day/VLCD Day 1...6/5/09
224.7 lbs (so, I gained nothing in my load in days despite stuffing my face-that's a first)
-9am shot...feeling hungry
-drink lots and lots of water (four 16 oz bottles) to stave off the hunger
11am-1 medium sized gala apple and a cup of hot decaf tea with Stevia sweetener
1230pm-3oz of boneless, skinless chicken breast seasoned with garlic powder & sea salt and 5 sticks of celery
2pm-2 more bottles of water
4pm-1 cup of hot Yerba Mate tea
5pm-3oz of steak seasoned with garlic powder & sea salt and 1/2 a package of plain spinach
530pm-diet iced tea
6pm-frozen raspberries with 1/2 packet of Stevia
730pm-15 minute walk with my husband and my dog
830pm-1 cup of hot Yerba Mate tea
10pm...off to bed. I won't lie...I have been hungry ALL DAY LONG. But I survived. I didn't cheat, I did everything according to plan, and I got in my little planned exercise. I feel pretty good, gnawing hunger pangs aside. I didn't wear any make up save a little mascara and lipstick, and I'm just using my organic lotion. I went out tonight and purchased more organic things like shampoo & conditioner, rock crystal deodorant, sugar free breath mints made with xylitol, and hair color. We'll see. :)
We'll see what the morning scale holds for me...:)
HCG Protocol Begins :)
So, after a decade of struggling with my weight, and a diagnosis of pituitary disease that affects my pituitary & hypothalamus glands, I'm trying something called HCG. It's sort of a last resort for people who have had weight issues...when the "eat less calories than you expend" strategy doesn't work. When you exercise till you fall over and don't lose a pound.
After my diagnosis, I was put on Hydrocortisone to replace the cortisol that my pituitary gland is too damaged to make. While it helps tremendously with my overwhelming fatigue and muscle aches, it also causes weight gain. Not good for someone who has been desperately struggling to lose it in the first place.
My weight issues started as a teenager. I gained 50-60lbs in a few months without increasing my calories. I went from a slim, healthy, happy 18 year old to a fat, flabby, exhausted person who was covered in stretch marks and hated herself. Over the last several years, I've gained and lost the same 30-40lbs, never reaching "thin" and usually feeling awful. I've had a personal trainer, nutritionists, and a strong willpower. I've tried Phentermine, Dexatrim, Jenny Craig, Medifast, Weight Watchers, Atkins...you name it, I've tried it. I've also help myself accountable. I know the caloric content of every bite that goes into my mouth. I've keep food journals. Doctors thought I had Cushings Disease...but no test reveals it conclusively. So they just end up thinking I'm sneaking food, or don't know portion control. Sometimes I hate conventional medicine.
At my wedding a few years ago, I was 5'6 and 175lbs. It took me a year to lose that 35lbs...6 days a week at the gym, removing all wheat/gluten/sugar from my diet,etc. In the last two years, I've put on 50lbs without really changing my healthy eating habits. When I started on Hydrocortisone, I weighed 210lbs...that was 2 months ago and I've gained 15 lbs since then. My endocrinologist recommended eating 800-1000 calories a day. I've done that...it leaves me weak and irritable.
A few weeks ago, I was making appointments with a plastic surgeon. I felt that weight loss surgery itself wouldn't help because I didn't have a problem with portions and willpower. But I felt that it was time to explore liposuction, tummy tucks, and brachioplasty for my huge belly and batwing upper arms. Then my mom called to tell me about a coworker who had lost 40lbs in a few months and kept it off. She was giving herself injections of something called HCG, which is often used in infertility treatment. It's something natural the body produces when a woman is pregnant.
I have done my research. There are many naysayers...but for every one of those, I find 10 supporters. I've read blogs. I've read of struggles from other women like me...who have legitimately tried everything. Women with PCOS, thyroid, and pituitary issues. Women who are finally, finally losing weight. Lots of weight.
So I ordered my HCG online and it arrived last week. My hubby has been monumental in helping me get started. He learned how to mix everything for the injections, and then cooked up all the proteins I needed, took me to every health food store for proper vitamins and organic items, etc. He thinks I'm gorgeous no matter what...it's time I actually feel that way myself.
I'll be blogging on my steps as often as I can. Start weight, 224.7lbs. Goal weight: 150lbs. I hope to reach there within the next 5 months. 75lbs in 5 months...sounds impossible, but I'm going to try!!! :)
After my diagnosis, I was put on Hydrocortisone to replace the cortisol that my pituitary gland is too damaged to make. While it helps tremendously with my overwhelming fatigue and muscle aches, it also causes weight gain. Not good for someone who has been desperately struggling to lose it in the first place.
My weight issues started as a teenager. I gained 50-60lbs in a few months without increasing my calories. I went from a slim, healthy, happy 18 year old to a fat, flabby, exhausted person who was covered in stretch marks and hated herself. Over the last several years, I've gained and lost the same 30-40lbs, never reaching "thin" and usually feeling awful. I've had a personal trainer, nutritionists, and a strong willpower. I've tried Phentermine, Dexatrim, Jenny Craig, Medifast, Weight Watchers, Atkins...you name it, I've tried it. I've also help myself accountable. I know the caloric content of every bite that goes into my mouth. I've keep food journals. Doctors thought I had Cushings Disease...but no test reveals it conclusively. So they just end up thinking I'm sneaking food, or don't know portion control. Sometimes I hate conventional medicine.
At my wedding a few years ago, I was 5'6 and 175lbs. It took me a year to lose that 35lbs...6 days a week at the gym, removing all wheat/gluten/sugar from my diet,etc. In the last two years, I've put on 50lbs without really changing my healthy eating habits. When I started on Hydrocortisone, I weighed 210lbs...that was 2 months ago and I've gained 15 lbs since then. My endocrinologist recommended eating 800-1000 calories a day. I've done that...it leaves me weak and irritable.
A few weeks ago, I was making appointments with a plastic surgeon. I felt that weight loss surgery itself wouldn't help because I didn't have a problem with portions and willpower. But I felt that it was time to explore liposuction, tummy tucks, and brachioplasty for my huge belly and batwing upper arms. Then my mom called to tell me about a coworker who had lost 40lbs in a few months and kept it off. She was giving herself injections of something called HCG, which is often used in infertility treatment. It's something natural the body produces when a woman is pregnant.
I have done my research. There are many naysayers...but for every one of those, I find 10 supporters. I've read blogs. I've read of struggles from other women like me...who have legitimately tried everything. Women with PCOS, thyroid, and pituitary issues. Women who are finally, finally losing weight. Lots of weight.
So I ordered my HCG online and it arrived last week. My hubby has been monumental in helping me get started. He learned how to mix everything for the injections, and then cooked up all the proteins I needed, took me to every health food store for proper vitamins and organic items, etc. He thinks I'm gorgeous no matter what...it's time I actually feel that way myself.
I'll be blogging on my steps as often as I can. Start weight, 224.7lbs. Goal weight: 150lbs. I hope to reach there within the next 5 months. 75lbs in 5 months...sounds impossible, but I'm going to try!!! :)
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